It's been cold and cloudy the past few days, with occasional rain of dropplets fine like mist. So much so that if you just closed your eyes, it feels like snow was falling on your face. Today was no different and I woke up to yet another one of these days. I don't really have anything against rainy days but of course I prefer waking up to a warm sun and vast blue sky - one which makes you feel that if you took a deep breath, it would dye your lungs.

However, today I realised something. Beautiful days, don't always start with chirping birds, a stroking breeze or an endless blue sky. For only on rainy days are you able to see something more wonderful (Only enduring bitter hardship do we really appreciate the sweetness of success?). For a large portion of the day, it was drizzling but as Jun and I drove home, skirting along the surprisingly still waters of Swan River, we saw the arc of a magnificent RAINBOW! !It was absolutely GIMAGNORMOUS!!! The biggest I've ever seen in my life!! It was breath-taking and we must have really been near the it! Then it made me wonder silly stuff like what is it which lies at the end? A pot of gold? What is it like to be standing at the bottom of a rainbow? Could we still see the rest of it? Or would we be seeing a different rainbow from another angle?

Sigh, what a beautiful sight! Such a pitty we were in a rush back to uni for I could have sat there for a whole day. So sad, how we blaze through life, fore-going moments which would never come again... ...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ROY!!!!~ =)

It has been such an awesome weekend and I feel great. Went down to subi for coffee and a haircut on Friday and went home to for some... DOTA!!! HAHA! BAD CHENG...but I guess I definitely made up for it over the weekend by:
1) studying my ass off on Saturday night and working on my group assignment for pretty much the entire Sunday.
2) not going clubbing and wasting money on alcohol. of course, I couldn't even if i wanted to because I had a driving test on Sat morn and Sunday mornings goes to God lol.

So on Saturday I had to wake up at 6+ to get ready for my driving test at 8am. It is sooooo damn hard to wake up to a dark sky, haul my fat ass out of bed to start the day. Grumbling at the snooze alarm, I wondered how I could actually do it through my secondary school days. When I finally managed to get up, I looked out my window, only to see an ovecast sky. I said to myself, "OH GOD, PLEASE (x10) DON'T RAIN!!! I really don't want to fail one more time and ask for my parents for more money to fund my next test with a lame I-failed-because-it-was-a-rainy-day-excuse."

Thankfully, in the end, the clouds magically cleared up and it turned out to be a beautiful morning. The sky was as clear as the car-free roads which it looked down upon and It made me feel so calm. Those good conditions definitely aided me in passing my test =). Oh, and the tester was Asian...

The rest of the weekend went pretty quick. I bought myself some new clothes and prob will try to watch my newly downloaded Lost episodes 21 and 22. After that it's back to study. Exams just round the corner and I'm scared shitless...

Just a thought:
Isn't it strange how when there are no cars around and practically no one is in your way from racing down that empty road (apart from the police) but you choose to drive slowly in the stillness; 55 on a 60 road, taking your time to round the corners. Instead, when the traffic is heavy, u just wanna drive as fast and aggressively as possible, speeding and overtaking cars at speeds of 65 or 70.

FOOD! GLORIOUS FOOD! My mom sent me an email the other day. I was quite touched because she totally know nuts about computers and while it read it, I thought to myself how painful it was for her to find keys on the keyboard and considering how long the email was, it must have taken her quite. Anyway, that's beside the point. She asked me if I was eating nutritious food. NUTRITIOUS??? HAHAHAHAHA.....Well, apart from brown rice and wholemeal bread which is our household preference (but not mine), I think she would be quite upset if she knew what I was eating. =P

Baskin Robins ice-cream: especially their chocolate based ice-creams like peanut butter and chocolate or world class chocolate. I've eaten an average of a pint of icecream a day over the past week.

Hungry Jacks (aka Burger King): especially the bacon cheeseburger deluxe with mushroom sauce. Basically, it's a wonderful hybrid of a mushroom swiss and bacon deluxe.

Tea Fusion bubble tea: Thirst quenching flavourful tea which pretty much cheers you up, even after a shitty dinner. All the drinks are awesome and the counter girl Ivy is hilarious. I'll drink any combinations WITH EXCEPTION OF....

• original milk tea with 2 scoops green-tea-jelly
• winter kiss with green-tea-jelly/aloe vera
• Jasmine green tea with green-tea-jelly
• Rockmellon milk tea with pearls

BECAUSE THOUSE DRINKS ARE BORRRRINGGGGGGG!~Heheheh >=)

Krispy Kreme donuts: TJ's FRIEND JUST GAVE US A BOX. WOOHOO!

There is nothing worse than getting disconnected sporadically, or even worse, have no connection at all. After becoming so dependent on internet, even half a day without a stable conncetion just leaves you with discomfort. Sometimes I wish we had broadband speeds similar to what they have in Korea where the entire country is networked by fibre optic cables. But reality slaps me in the face and awakens me from my bogus wishlist. WAKE UP MATE!! I'm NOT in Korea. I'm in Oz. Which means that IInet the 'best' we've got.

So the other day(and almost every other day), we had internet problems and I gave IInet a ring. While the network support personnel was guiding me through hoping to fix the problem, my attention was brought to the adsl modem they sold us. I couldn't help but snicker. On it was the IInet Logo with the big bold words CONNECT BETTER below it. Tell me about it...

I've been a Deviant Art member for ages usually looking for pictures for my desktop. Other times, I'll just browse through the marvelous and often inspirational photo galleries. This was until recently, when I stumbled on the Poetry and Prose section. Ever since, I've been actually trying to become more active in the community, hopefully I'll learn new stuff, gain different perspectives and of course improve my insipid writing. I've come to prefer literature over film and witty quotes over photos. Sometimes I wonder if my blog title fits anymore. What originally started as a photo blog where I just put up photos and used minimal descriptions, has now evolved into something quite the opposite. Maybe this is just a phase?

Anyway I felt that I was a leecher, reading stuff but not sharing any because I think lowly of the stuff I write. I just do it because it helps me focus on the things I have to do by getting random thoughts out of my head. Last night though, I decided that I'd rather be a newbie and improve than someone who hides behind a curtain hoping no one will notice. So I pulled out some courage and decided to put up Blindness (april 30 post). To much surprise, A couple of hours later I got a private message telling me that someone actually added it to their favorites. Haha! =) I guess sometimes we just need a little support to keep ourselves going and pursuing what we think is write (right).

This morning, when I woke up and went to the toilet to take a piss, a dream of which I had while sleeping, popped into my head. It was such a silly dream! I dreamt that Snowy (TJ's westie), peed on me while I was carrying him on my lap. Maybe was a glimpse of future retribution for me always commanding him to pee on the floor, or people carrying him when he's happily running around. Of course lucky for me he doesn't listen and I really don't mean it - i prefer to see it as reverse psycology.

"SNOWY! PEE ON THE FLOOR! SNOWY! PEE ON TJ! PEE ON ME (because I'm OneFatPeon duh)! GOOD DOG!"

I froze in awe as the thick yellow liquid seeped through my pair of Levis. Luckily, I had a backup pair of berms and I changed into that after washing my jeans. Isn't it wonderful how in dreams there is always a backup plan for a dreadful situation? Even if I were in New York and chased by gansters with diamond studded teeth, I could outrun them. Even if they DO catch up and maim me, at the most desperate of situations, before I get raped (not literally thanks), I would teleport to some place else. Hawaii would be nice.

Right. Dream on.

Then being the daydreamer I am, I started push my Investment Analysis readings on capital asset pricing and regression models, to rationalise with myself the reaons why there are dreams which we can remember so vividly while there are some which, no matter how hard we try to recall, are lost when we wake up. The weird part is that we can remember if they were good dreams or not yet not be able to remember anything which happened to support that. I think it was only last week, Jay told me something about dreams. He told me that if we woke up in the middle of the night, wrote down the dream we had and went back to sleep, the next morning when we woke up and read what we wrote, it would be totally foreign to us. We would have absolutely no idea of what we wrote and we'd be going like HUH?WTF!

I'm no psychologist and I certainly cannot come up with a credible answer to why we can remember some dreams and not others. Maybe it's because of the density of sleep we were in? Maybe we were so tired that the memory part of the brain shut down completely? It needs rest afterall. Imagine how much is going in, ever second during the time we are awake, collecting virtual images, feelings, tastes...Of course, I say this with exclusion to mine which seems to throw things out seconds after they come in.

Ok, back to my point. What was it again?

Then, putting science aside, I realised that I cannot "catch" every single dream. There are times in life and not in our fantastic fantasy of dreams, when crucial moments slip by, goals vanish, and the dreams stay as dreams - never to become a reality. Maybe in life, there are things which are not meant to be like loves which are are lost or ever attained at all, we have dreams so wonderfully intoxicating but only to be forgotten the next day. I guess sometimes we just have to live with the boundaries of we got and can achieve and just... ...dream on.

Ever had a coffee from a place like Gloria Jean's or Spinelli's and wondered how they made pretty heart shapes and stuff on the top layer of the coffee? Well I stumbled on a video and I finally found out! Makes me feel like making some now =)

If ur reading this...
Happy Birthday!
hope u enjoyed your day=)

Being one of my favorite players of all time, I really hope he doesn't go off to another club but it seems he is bound to leave Man U as Fergie unleashes his wrath once more...



Will miss Ruud =(

Why do I blog? Do I write things for my own sake or write things for people to accept or understand me better? Is it because it can be an outlet, screaming out to the world for sympathy? Or is it a place where I can share the happiest moments of my life? But then again, does anyone really care? What people think of us would not bother us so much if we knew how little they did. The lines are blurring (if not they already are) and often I can't answer these questions at all.

One thing is for sure though, I am not out for sympathy. I would hate this blog to be perceived as a bitchy blog full of whinges and complaints. I'd like to think that I don't bitch a lot because there is no point crying over spilt milk - build a bridge and get over it yea? Secondly, the people who read this blog are people interlinked by a network of friends and the last thing I want is a misunderstanding and shit hitting the fan because of some impulsive gaucherie. Of course, I would like to think I'm not a rash person and like weighing my choices before making important decisions. Then again when like to get the best for ourselves, we bring more problems in and consider things which are actually trivial. Jun and TJ always say I'm choosy in everything I do. This is what they always say (forgive my bad hanyu pinyin), "xuan dong xi hao xiang xuan lao po". Choosing what I want like choosing a wife. But, ok that's a whole different story all together =).