I was going to start out with a chirpy entry covering the stuff which happened this week. It was to an extent a fun and full one. I love what I did to my hair and also the new stuff I have bought. But seconds ago, I just tried to log onto my warcarft and here is see some faggot using my CD key and is already in battle net. Hence I am unable to log on. At this instance, moments of life flash by my eyes and I question myself. Why the fuck do the nice people always lose out? Why does helping others always end up with your own self sacrifice and pain?

I wanna get things straight. This has nothing to do with me being a warcraft pro-gamer; for that was a thing of the past. I don't care about the game. I've played 45 mintues of it in the spread of one week. I am far too busy to keep up with it now. So what pisses me off is NOT not being able to log on but because of the morality of a person (or people) involved. This branches out to more than just the game. We are looking at life, and people in the world, their actions, as a much larger perspective now. So you must be thinking how the hell does not being able to enter Battle.net to play a game tie up with my feelings now. So I'm going to explain. I have let some people install warcraft just to play the single player mode because they ask me nicely in a sort of begging and pathetic kind of way. Being a friend, I naturally will agree to help. During the installation, they will need to use my CD keys in order for it to work. I firmly specify that they shall NOT enter battle net servers and they agree. Low and behold. When I try to access my warcraft, I CANT BECAUSE SOMEONE USING MY CD KEY IS ALREADY IN BATTLE.NET. Of course maybe someone actually hacked my computer with a trojan backdoor virus to get the cd key or maybe Blizzard ACCIDENTALLY sold 2 copies with the same CD key- but what are the probabilities of that?!!Moral of the story? Don't lend out you stuff. Don't be nice because in the end, people are going to use it against you.

What's the use of being nice if the person you lend a 'friend' 70 miserable dollars to to save his ass from missing his flight and having to go thru deserts and moutains to get that money back? Or will I get it back at all?

What's the use of being nice and lending out stuff when it come back broken? Or not having it come back at all?

What's the use of giving a beggar a couple of dollars at the hawker centre and mintues later walking around seeing him drinking from a tiger bottle?

What use is it being a nice guy when the girl you love prefers someone else who doesnt give a shit about her? Or drinks, cheats on her, takes drugs, lies to her or bets his life away?

Last night I was watching Van Helsing and a quote really caught my attention. One so similar to the one i put up only a week ago. Remember 'Do unto others as you would like them to do unto you'? Well, last night when Igor was talking to Dracula and torturing a beast..he said "DO UNTO OTHERS BEFORE THEY DO UNTO YOU". Somehow, it was funny and I so could relate to those words.

On the other hand, I know that being kind is almost always welcome. You live life with a clear mind and I am sure that there are occasions which kindness pays off.... But now, Im blinded and drawn by the lunatic calm of the darkness....

I'm fighting a war but only in vain. Can the path to the dark side ease my pain?