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Just re-edited a poem which i wrote like 3 years back. Its NOT a reflection of my current thoughts or feelings now (i think), so dont start calling my handphone or messaging me on msn telling me words like "cheer up", "pls dont commit suicide" or stuff like that. I wont. I'm not stupid (eventhough many of u do think would violently object that). Also on a side note, I dont know if people are visiting more regularly or more people are coming in but im getting so much more visitors. So I would just like to say thx for the support because i really appreciate it. Laters!~ :)
Lost
I wish i could break from these chains that bind
And leave the sad memories all behind.
I wish i could clear my mind from this constant doubt
To find out what this life is really about.
Like a helpless mouse trapped in a cage,
Like a withered man at the dusk of age,
Suffering a pain which is never shown,
A little lost boy who is all alone.
I try to run from this confusion and pain.
But running in circles-everything comes back again.
I try to fight back, but losing heart,
As this world just continues to fall apart.
Like the birds which no longer sing,
Like endless winters and no spring,
Suffering a pain which is never shown,
A little lost boy who is all alone.
C. blogged on 4:20 PM
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OK. I've gone to Metro (club in perth) for the second week running. Just had a craving for alcohol and some music to "dance" to recently. Past few weeks have been stressful and there is no better way to solve that problem than by drinking a couple and trying to break free from the ridigity of the world. Im not saying that drinking is good and that alcohol takes u one step closer to nirvana. Thinking of it, probably the only place it would bring u is to the ground...One tequilla, two tequilla, three tequilla, Floor....
The music was horrible that night but the company was fantastic. A wonderful moment to remember. All wonderful things though, sometimes have to come to an end. While accelerated drinking may lead to accelerated 'happiness', it also leads to accelerted fluids spewing out from ur mouth....you get my drift =). Definitely thou, it was one of the best weekends ever- one which i can satiate my party mood and hit the books for a good 3 weeks and nail the exam papers.
Anyway, I'll leave u guys with a pics taken from that night and also some pick up lines which stumbled on while searching for quotes from the movie Eternal Sunsine of the Spotless Mind last week. Warning: use at ur own risk ;)
Guy: "Haven't I seen you someplace before?"
Girl: "Yes, that's why I don't go there anymore."
Guy: "Do you believe in love at first sight or do you want me to walk by again?"
Girl: "Yeah, but this time don't stop!"
Guy: "I'd like to call you. What's your number?"
Girl: "It's in the phone book."
Guy: "But I don't know your name."
Girl: "That's in the phone book too."
Guy: "Is this seat empty?"
Girl: "Yes, and this one will be too if you sit down."
Guy: "What`s it like being the most beautiful girl in this room?"
Girl: "What`s it like being the biggest liar in the world?"
Guy: "Your place or mine?"
Girl: "Both. You go to yours and I'll go to mine."
Guy: "So, wanna go back to my place?"
Girl: "Well, I don't know. Will two people fit under a rock?"
Abby n Faith n Ally 
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TJ n Me
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AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
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RRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGHHhh
hhhhhhhhhhhhHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
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Yeah. That made me feel better :)
C. blogged on 2:51 AM
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I two days, I've watched Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind twice. It's really a very interesting movie. During the first one and a half hours of the show, I couldn't really get what was going on because the movie is shown in fragments similar to that which we saw in the movie Momento. At the early parts of the show, i was lost and fustrated for not understanding a thing. Yet, in the end, i realised how marvelous the editing/cinematography was. The feeling was somewhat like piecing together a jig-saw puzzle and putting small bits together. Then there are times of fustration, when you think you can't find a piece to fit that bloody gap. But in the end, when everything is put together, and we see the final work, the big picture, we know that the time put in was well worth it- even if the puzzle isn't as fantastic looking as it was on the box cover. It is only then, when i realise, patience pays.
I'm not patient person. I do things fast, I hate slow sappy shows (though im beginning to appreciate them), I won't play for a team where there are liabilities, I like listening to music which is fast, I wont wait up for the people who lag behind me and i scold Chris (and pretty much the entire BattleNet community) for being a noob when he plays dota with me just because he doesnt play as well.
I realise, that doing things fast, doesnt mean that you are better, or u can see more or experience more just because you get things done quicker. Sometimes we have to slow down. Instead of speeding down the highway, cruise on it, admire the scenery and take a notice for things which sometimes we dont. How sure are we when someone asks about a traffic light - which colour is on top? Red or Green? Or our watch, which we look at so often. Without looking at it, do we know if there are numbers on its face at each hourly interval? While some people might be confident in their answers, i'm positive a similar question would leave me stumped. Maybe i'm not observant enough? Maybe i don't care? Or maybe I need to slow down a bit more, be more patient, and observe the world-the one which does not revolve around me.
So i ask forgiveness for anything which i've done which was rash and impatient and for missing out on details or feelings along the way.
'Sometimes you have to let go of the accelerator to drive faster,' quoted from Initial D. While all i know how to drive is a tank/m113 at the moment, i'm pretty sure there is some truth to the words said. Anyway, with regard to driving, i'm starting everything next week! Hehehe, i can't wait. While i know im gonna be such a noob, I do hope that my instructor will be, well..... patient :).
C. blogged on 6:57 PM
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I was watching the Phantom of the Opera movie which was directed by Joel Schumacher the other night. It was good because it refreshed my fading memory of the musical which i saw when i was only a little boy. I do have to say, the music was truly spectular and moving, pinning Andrew LLoyd Webber's name back up on my list of musical geniuses. While watching the movie, i managed to catch themes which i never took notice of before.
One of the themes, which i felt was pretty interesting, was one of which Christine, who loves the Phantom because of his mentor-ish presence on her, is having to choose between him or the dying Raoul. So basically, pretty-boy Raoul is getting owned and is about to die in the hands of mr phantom, and Christine, the woman (and we all know how fickle-minded women are =P), will have no more difficulty choosing who she wants to be with or love.
For all the Phantom of the Opera noobs who have no idea what im talking about, i took the trouble to draw out what the scene KINDA looked like. Don't blame me if my drawing sucks, just appreciate it or watch the damn movie to get a better idea. Well yea....Knock urself out....
Christine: "OMG HELP!!! OMG WHAT AM I GOING TO DO!!! does he prefer his fish fried or grilled?"
So what happens next? The Phantom decided to let it all go. He set Raoul free and Christine was free to leave with him. All this fighting...for nothing.... Then it all hit me. All this themes of love, desire, regret and hate hit me. It hit me in a way which is indescrible really. I cant tell if the feeling is one of a brick falling from 2 stories up and hitting u on the head or someone trying to kick ur foot because you said something stupid at the dinner table missing it but hitting a more sensitive part of your body instead.
It is said that if you really love something very much, set it free and if it loves you, it will come back to you. Obviously, Mr Phantom was thinking somewhere along those lines. He loved Christine, that is for sure. Christine did love him back too its obvious...so yea...no harm letting her go off with a handsome, rich man because she'll come back to you if she really loved the man behind the mask. Yea, I see it now.
WAKE UP UR IDEA LAH. Letting the one you love leave you, hoping he/she will return only happens in fairytales ( or Hollywood movies). The whole thought of it is something like striking ToTo and donating it all to charity and hoping that they will give u back some money when you're broke. Aint gonna happen. Dont count on it.
Then again, please dont get me wrong. I'm not saying that you should be an evil Mofo and kill off your competition (eventhough sometimes i do wish that the phantom killed raoul). What im really saying is, if you have something you love, hold onto it, treasure it like it will be ur last. Dont be prepared to give it all up because of you feel that you are inferior (like our dear Mr Mask). Sometimes things are worth fighting for...and love is one of them. Now, if only i could get my life sorted out... ....
C. blogged on 5:17 PM
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Awesome shit! Revenge is so sweet. Last year we were whooped in the inter-college tourney but this time round, we had an absolutely solid team. Took only 3 training sessions for us to gel but we did it in the end and had easy wins through out the tournmanet often having 20point leads.
GG WE WIN. fantastic play from all the guys
C. blogged on 5:42 PM
Nomah turned 1 yr older on wed and had a nifty N-party on saturday. I loved some of the costumes, felt kinda shitty that mine (NERD!) wasnt as fanciful as many. Bleh..but i had a rough week with training and stuff =/.
Peace out to u too lil girl!
C. blogged on 5:40 PM
Nerdy Me and Nicole Kidmanish-Moulin Rogueish Normah the birthday gal!
C. blogged on 5:36 PM
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Staying in Perth too long can make people talk wierd....
C. blogged on 1:45 AM
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Had bball triaining today, and we're trying to get our team in shape by this saturday for intercollege bball. Tired~ And recently, i've not been sleeping well and that didnt help much either. After training, got a quick shower and rushed off to the trinity formal dinner.
It was a jazz themed dinner. Dinner was bad (as usual) the pre-dinner snacks were so much better. Beer+nuggets+spring rolls+garlic bread+more beer totally rocked. Well..maybe not as much as these guys...
Jazzin' thinZ up!
C. blogged on 1:29 AM
Gals at the table! left to right: Jasmine, Shin, Belle, Wei
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Guys at the table! from left to right: Hao, me, Roy, Jason, Michael
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Food was BLEAH....but the good company made up for it and everything else which sucked. Watching some of the ppl dance was extremely entertaining too! Anyway, it was all good and i cant wait til the next formal dinner...and my friend's N-themed party coming up this week! More on that next post!
Food at the table!
C. blogged on 1:27 AM
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A friend once told me,
"get pink, it is the new black".
But i always said, "see
i wouldnt buy pink even if i were smoking crack."
Pink is too girly, pink is too gay!
That was until i looked at my wardrobe one day.
I saw the same boring colours and started thinking strange.
Maybe i really should try something different for a change.
One day i was out in the store,
And saw this pink shirt, a colour i've never worn before.
So what the heck, i thought i'd give it a shot.
And so i purchased the shirt without a second thought.
After wearing it, it didnt feel that bad.
This colour is nice, this one i never had.
And who cares if other people think its not nice.
Liking it yourself, that will suffice.
No need for hessitation,
no need to think.
Get in fashion,
get pink!
C. blogged on 1:45 AM
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